I was watching this video last night.

I don’t know what I expected when I started that video. Maybe I wanted to know how could I be more productive as a new dad myself. (Fuck this need to be productive. Just live man!)

I was looking for some practical things basically. Something that I could add to my life, to squeeze some time out, to write, read, whatever.

I was surprised as I went through the video. It was nothing like that. It was instead an acknowledgment that things change. It’s the same thing I keep feeling every once in a while. Reminiscing how things used to be. Mourning the things that never were.

It’s all useless.

That’s what I tell myself whenever I catch myself doing that.

I used to do yoga with a guru, before Savya was born. That just is not possible anymore. I cannot give one hour of my life and say no matter what I will be there. I can’t. It’s just not possible. There are more important things.

So yes, things change. Life goes on. We find time to do some things we want to do. Some. Not all.