These are the moments, when I feel like the only thing that would give me peace, is having my own website. Using Hugo, or Jekyll. The problem I think would be around the newsletter. I had self-hosted ghost for a bit on LighSail. Sending emails was the thing I could not solve, and the reason I had started with Ghost Pro.

I just wish they would allow custom themes with the starter plan.

Yesterday, I had felt I had figured out what I wanted to do. By the time I finished writing that post, I did not feel like I did.

It felt weird. It felt like there would be a context switch between what I wanted to say and the links that would come up after that.

I tried to come to terms with it.

I tried to like it.

I told myself, give it time.

I just don’t like it. I don’t like it so much that it made me question the five things to share section in nordletter. Is it any useful?

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What I want to do is have different ways of showing the link-blog vs everything else.

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The only thing I can think of for now is creating a page for the links I want to post and keep updating it.

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But I don’t want that. I want to post how I do normally, and based on the tag get it formatted differently.

Also, all these link-blog type items should get auto-collected into the daily post. Like how it works on Dave’s blog.

That would be possible with custom themes. But that would mean bumping up to the creator plan. And I can’t justify spending that money at this time.

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Hence, my desire to go to self-hosting.

Let me do whatever I want to do.

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To be honest, I don’t think it matters as much. I don’t think how the website looks matters to my readers as much it matters to me.

But it matters to me. And it is making me restless and not good.

Gaah!